If you would have told me two years ago that I would be adopting a little girl from South Korea, I would have said, uh, ok - whatever! Today I am forever indebted to our Heavenly Father for placing us on this journey. I thank Him everyday, if not many times a day.
Control. Ask my husband, this is something that I have deeply rooted within me. I try not to control things, but it's just my nature. What can I say? Throughout this journey, I have been unable to control one detail. Not one. At first, it drove me crazy. The Lord has patiently and lovingly shown me that this is something, among many other things, that I have to lay at His feet. He has also shown me, through His astounding faithfulness, that things in His timing tend to work out better than those of my timing. I trust every little detail is worked out "according to His purpose." I give this adoption, and all that it entails - to Him. He knows where every sheet of paper is, the day, hour, minute of when we all will see her precious face for the first time, He has everything orchestrated down to the finest detail. That's more than I could ever control or even try to control! Amen?
I am so thankful today, for God's faithfulness and His patience, but most of all I am so very thankful for allowing us to experience His heart - a heart for children, and love so deep that bridges oceans. We're coming baby sister, we love you, and we will see you soon - well, in His timing, soon. ;)
Thursday, March 26, 2009
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3 comments:
Hi Jayme, I know ALL about control (or lack of) in the adoption process. That was one thing I struggled with greatly while waiting to bring J home. Oooo was it hard, but he is home now, and so worth the wait. :) Happy waiting. Live and let God!
~H
I know exactly what you mean! I too have learned through the adoption process what it means to let go - of my plans, my timeline, my control. And I too have found the Lord to be so faithful in all of this!
I am right here with you on this one! I struggle with the 'lack' of control I have over bringing our baby girl home RIGHT NOW! It is such a relief to be able to let it all go, and know that God is going to bring us the child he sees as the best fit for our family...In His own timing!
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